Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Daycare introduction no walk in the park




Kids started kindergarten 18 August.... My dad spend first THREE weeks being with them as an introduction. They refused to leave his side and if the teacher hadn't told us that we have to try to leave them there by themselves a little I think he would still spend his days at kids daycare with them ( very carrying granddad indeed)  First weeks (!) I had to pull myself free from screaming and crying kids to get to work. It broke my heart over and over. But worst to come... After this phase came the silent big crocodile tears. Horrible and even more heart breaking. These tears was accompanied with Mila begging me not to leave her and saying "but I love you and I want to be with you" " I miss you sooooo much" "Why do you have to leave me?" "Who will take care of me?" "I also want to be a grown-up so I can come with you to your job" These begging and her being very nervous for being left at kindergarten was more then heart breaking if that is possible. We were thinking this will never get better she will never want to go there.
During our vacation in Spain she started to play daycare and saying that she was missing her best friend there. And so came the day, TODAY, when she didn't complain going to daycare!!! She only got a little glace in her eyes as I said bye bye but when her little friend came running to help her off with her shoes I was already forgotten. So grateful for this development. People keep saying that it has been extra hard doing the daycare introduction at almost 4 years old ( in all well meaning) and of course that is very true she knows what she wants, can express herself and have more develop emotions. I agree it is harder but not for a second do I regret that I had the chance to be fulfilled and happy being home with her. She is now ready to be a little more independent and try new things without me.
What about Filip. Filip is only 1 year and 4 months and I think it is early for him to start daycare. Although he is a different character and also as he is born here in Sweden where we have family around he is also more use to having more people taking care of him since he is born. In Prague we had great friends but not same close connection with family around all the time as we have had with Filip. He has been hanging with granddad and uncle Christer since he is born. My feeling is that he can handle daycare. Also I am only working three days a week and get help to pick up so not even long days. Filip cried today when I handed him over but before I even went through the door I could hear him asking Mike (the teacher)  for different things. And my uncle Christer picked them up after lunch and Filip's nap.

Fingers crossed now that we are on the other-side of daycare introduction !!!

Monday, September 26, 2016

Qina


So much fun this horse of ours.. First couple of weeks tense like a ticking bomb and of course with our collected experience from the professional and international circuit we are being careful and taking things steady. Add that we are older, wiser and with two kids each. We are not only careful but maybe even chicken at the moment before we know our lady. AND that is totally ok. I am impressed this week I feel more secure on her and she gives such great great feeling. She moves great and are very balanced although green, weak and will take  a lot of training to build up muscles and endurance. Only in a couple of weeks she has learned a lot a really gives a good feeling. Yesterday I made a few jumps with her and she really jumps. Yes I am already in love with this mare

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Great time in Spain

We headed to Spain last week. Family collected in a warm sunny place what could be better? Flight down went well even though we had to get up at 3 and be at the airport by 4. Nice warm weather met us and we were all very excited to have time off together and to enjoy the sun and mormor's pool. Such luxury to be able to borrow my mother's and Göran's very nice house in Puerto Banus costa del sol. Going away but still feeling a little home or at least familiar and have every day things to do such as laundry, cleaning and feeding the cat ( I know sounds crazy that I like washing and cleaning on vacation but I do) Loren also loves supermarkets and cooking so great combination of vacation but business as usually kind of. Don't get me wrong we also enjoy being lazy drinking beer by the pool or eating avocado and prawns in the harbor.

Even though it is only our second time here we already feel like we know what we are doing and know our ways around. One day we did a long walk to check out the neighborhood and found great parks and local bar with local people. Otherwise our set up was looooong breakfast, swimming in the pool, Loren walking with Filip for nap time while me and Mila was drawing, lunch and afternoon going in to Puerto Banus for some shopping, hanging by the beach and eating.  



Filip since he is born is very much pappa pappa pappa's boy. First and more or less only word is pappa.. I try and try to repeat mamma as often as I can but he keeps looking at me saying PAPPA 
And at the moment it is only pappa who is good enough for everything. I am worth nothing and he screams like I am trying to kill him if I only ask if he wants to come to me.... Poor mamma





Sunday, September 4, 2016

Horse owner again

Yes it is sort of life changing this with me starting working again. It feels good that I started on a nice level with 3 days a week even though these days are very intense. New carrier path as a teacher is no walking in the park, but I like challenges and to learn new things so I guess this is just what I needed. I am trying to stick to my mantra to do things good enough. That doesn't mean that I don't care or that I am doing things bad it just simply means to do things good enough and not to stress over things or striving to be perfect. Already now I have problems not to over work or over think things but hey it is hard to teach an old dog to sit.
Kids and their granddad has been at daycare introduction for 3 weeks but I will write more about that in other post.

Last week not only did we buy a new car we ( read me) bought a horse. Yes it is true I BOUGHT A HORSE. I am sharing it with a friend with great knowledge about horses and who also have worked professional with horses on high level. We have been talking about it, that it would be a cool idea to share a horse as we both has small children and don't want a or can manage a horse full-time. And we are both doers and not only talkers so from out of the blue a very sweet mare turned up and we fell in love. She moves like a queen and has a lot of potential but also a lot of work as she has only been ridden three years. She past the vet check mo problem last Monday and came with us home. Very exciting and unreal. Not that I don't have enough to do with 2 kids, 2 dogs, 1 cat, big house, big garden and new job.. But horses is not only pretty time consuming but also gives me energy and the best way to exercise.